The force awakens


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This sunset went on for FOUR hours!

I am writing this in Terminal 3, Heathrow Airport, Dec 31, watching the mass and mess of humanity – including families bustling home after Xmas and, exhaustingly, a youth going to New York just for New Year’s Eve. (As my flight is an hour and a half late, my New Year is now going to commence in the higher sky …)

Family life provides umpteen opportunities to practice patience and kindness, especially when it involves the care of small children or elderly or unwell adults. Notwithstanding that the love in families can be a wonderful thing, and I have just had a very enjoyable time with my parents and other fab family members, my observation has been that family life is challenging at all ages and in all countries. One drawback of family life can be that we are bound to the same people whether we get on with them or not, that we can get stuck into grooves of thinking and behaving that are not necessarily helpful, and that this can cause underlying frustration even at the best of times. Looking around this airport, a small slice of life, a small slice of time, I can see hundreds of little annoyances and minor desperations. A mother right next to me saying wearily over the sound of her wailing child: “We’ll get him to suck his dummy during take-off if we need to; he won’t eat anything now.” An argument between a couple in Costa. And one full-blown tantrum at the security gate.

I said goodbye to my 81-year old dad at East Finchley tube station this morning, and a woman standing nearby saw that he was a bit mournful as he lumbered back to his car (my dad likes me.) In a South African accent, she asked how old he was, and then pointed out her husband, who is 83, and volunteered, “All our friends are getting older and iller and dying.” Of course, I couldn’t then pass up on this opportunity to chat as I have been thinking a lot of late of the challenges of worldly life; so we ended up traveling together to Warren Street tube where she and her husband got off.

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Sunset was followed by daylight!

She told me she had read a book called Letting Go, recently, and was experiencing a bit of an “awakening” as she found independence from her husband (only 74, she has decided to go on lots of mini-trips on her own without him if he can’t come with her, for example to Vienna.) She is no longer interested in being taken for granted, used as a hotel, and blamed for everything by her three 50+ kids – I agreed that they may respect her more if she starts to live her own life and respect herself, that she has already done quite enough for them, including giving them their bodies (“and much much more”, she added darkly). Also, everyone, even those for whom we feel most responsible, has their own path and karma, and so we can only do so much. Her morbidly obese daughter, who was rushed to ER recently, has always blamed her mother for everything, and her mother has always worried herself sick about her; but this daughter is now in the care of professionals and her brother, an ex-Israeli soldier, who is insisting she finally take responsibility for her own life — leaving her mother to declare on the London tube, “I feel free for the first time in years!” It was a brief encounter, but a meaningful one. She wanted my blog URL, and thought I might write about her; and she may even be reading this now.

Shantideva says that people attached to a worldly life experience many problems with little reward:

They are like a horse forced to pull a cart,
Who can grab only an occasional mouthful of grass to eat.

In the old days of Buddhism, it was more traditional to give up on worldly life altogether and take yourself off to a monastery or a mountain cave. (Tempting!!!) But this is the modern world and, thanks to the patience and skill of my teacher Geshe Kelsang, this is modern Buddhism – so we are finding ways to install mountain caves into our living rooms next to the flat screen TV, Fisher Price truck, or zimmer frame, or maybe in a quiet spot in our bedrooms. Everyone can learn to meditate and follow a spiritual path both on and off the meditation seat; this is no longer the province just of monks and Yogis, and it’d all be over if it was.

plane in sky who takes these photosBeing practical can be helpful and, dealing with an illness, my folks and me did a lot of practical things over the last couple of weeks, adjusting day by day to the “new normal”. But in some ways this confirmed that we cannot solve our actual or inner problems outside the mind. We need to know how to develop and sustain inner peace as everything slides away from us, basically out of our control. No one ever gets out of here alive, and leaving these bodies, whether quickly or slowly, is usually pretty challenging for ourselves and everyone else concerned. The pilot (for I am writing this paragraph later, now on the plane, while experiencing an on-rolling sunset!) just described this as a “long-haul flight”; which made me think that we really do have to haul these meaty bodies about all over the place for years, sometimes under our own steam, sometimes with the help of a Boeing 747. Until they fall over and we can’t get them up again.

I have to quote this from Bill Bryson’s latest book that I just brought in WHSmiths at the airport:

The worst part about ageing is the realization that all your future is downhill. Bad as I am today, I am pretty much tip-top compared with what I am going to be next week or the week after. I recently realized with dismay that I am even too old now for early onset dementia. Any dementia I get will be right on time.

However, taking charge of our own minds (while we still can) does require some determination — going inwards to solve our human problems isn’t automatic in our busy, distracted society. Right now, for example, in the airport, I am surrounded by sensory stimulation – music straining to be heard above the noise, ads everywhere, shops galore, and pretty much everyone — except those in a hurry to queue for their planes or vainly trying to stop their children barging into strangers — on their smartphones. I am tuning this all out now to write this.

happiness is my responsibility
It’s not a bad idea (UK English for “it’s a good idea”) to take time off from the constant hectic blare to go inward every day, even if it is only 10 to 20 minutes, or even if it is only the few minutes in the gaps between activities, if we can tear ourselves away from our gadgets. It is also a good idea, if and when we can, to treat ourselves to some retreat. And I am very grateful that I and thousands of others in this tradition have the opportunity to do just this in January 2016. This is because I find that meditation is what makes sense of everything or anything, including all this ridiculous ageing, sickness, and death stuff. I mean, really, it is so bad it’s almost funny. Bill Bryson says, in what is supposed to be a funny book:

There are other scenarios that involve catheters, beds with side railings, plastic tubing with my blood in it, care homes, being lifted on and off toilets, and having to guess what season it is outside – and those are all still near the best-case end of the spectrum.

Laugh a minute, that. And no one escapes it. Unless … and this is the whole point of the spiritual path … unless we use everything that happens to us to help us increase our compassion (to give us the energy, the motivation, the bliss) and our wisdom realizing that this is all just dream-like appearance reflected by our own thoughts (to get us through the door to liberation). Or, as I like to say:

Samsara sucks. Samsara sucks for everyone. But luckily samsara is not real.

Star WarsWe need to escape from the sufferings of samsara once and for all. From the title of this article, you might have been expecting more about the new Star Wars movie; but I’m afraid I didn’t like it quite enough to write more. However, there was one rather excellent line in it I thought (and don’t worry, this is not a spoiler):

Escape first, hug later.

So, back to some discussion of how to do Mahamudra meditation, really awaken the force within (rather than — sorry, spoiler alert — have a lame stick fight in the forest), and get the hell out of here. Only now I have run out of space, and you have other things you need to do; so we’ll have to wait till next time.

Author: Luna Kadampa

Based on 35 years' experience, I write about applying Buddhist meditation to our everyday lives. I try to make it accessible to everyone who wants more inner peace, not just Buddhists. Do make comments any time and I'll write you back!

22 thoughts on “The force awakens”

  1. Thank you for your wonderful helpful words Luna. They really resonated as I have an 85 year old father who is struggling with his sudden onset on ill health, three years now..Unfortunately he has always based his happiness on things outside of himself. A big awakening for myself. I practice patient acceptance whenever I remember to be mindful but he triggers so much in me by his continuous negativity, aggression and expectations. My teacher Phuntsog in KZN, South Africa reminds me that my father is my teacher. I get that, however how can I protect myself from this draining energy? I think I know the answer, meditate meditate meditate!!! 🙂 🙂 🙂 Have a wonderful 2016 Luna. With love Veronica

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  2. Happy New Year Luna and your article was just fab. I don’t believe in getting old but you have to keep DANCING and think and thank geshela for our great life and attributes.

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  3. Thanks, as always, for your encouragement and inspiration. May you have a blessed and happy new year. Btw I’m glad to say that your articles are appearing once again in my inbox 😊

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  4. Downhill aging is definitely on my mind right now, so thank you for the timely reminder of what needs to be done internally. The Dharma lesson that smacked me in the face during the new Star Wars (from beginning to end) is this: “You lack discipline!”

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      1. The obvious answer would be watching the emotional incontinence of Kylo Ren. Scenes that suggest futility, like the temporary surrender of Chewie, Han, and Finn, remind me that I tend to give up when appearances seem fixed. Things change rapidly, and my tendency to give up comes from a lack of mental discipline that should maintain mindfulness and alertness as well as awareness that appearances are just the magical play of mind. The less obvious answer (and more difficult to express) would come from watching Rey and Luke Skywalker. Rey is a character pushing onward through continuous hardship, both physical and mental. Seeing the cave-like spaces of that deserted island necessarily remind me of silent retreat, and Luke’s ravaged old face just feels like looking in the mirror. Unlike most children, I identified with Luke–especially fantasizing that I would go to Dagobah system and train with Yoda. It was such a foreshadowing of having the Spiritual Guide (Geshe-la, of course), and I am just as whiny and resistant as Luke ever was in the films! I went into the theater expecting to see Dharma there somehow due to that hook from childhood.

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  5. Hi Special one, it’s been a while since I read any of your writings, but I will be forever greatfull for early on your writings were so helpful . I read many of Geshe La books not understanding a whole lot, but allways had faith and knew that keep putting in effort some day I would see results…….. So in ten days I will regester for the Commentery The Oral instructions of Mahamudra , after Summer Festival …..The warmth that is in my heart for my Spiritual Guide is pure joy ….Again thank you, Love & Blessings , Bruce Matters VMC, Sag Harbor NY

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    1. I loved how you referred to our human body, lugging it around! That reinforces the way I am trying to see myself: a spiritual being in a human form. Takes the emphasis away from pride, vanity, etc. in relating to my body. As usual, I find your columns very helpful on my spiritual path.

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  6. I am at an airport too and here harsh words going on around me, and these are people going on holiday! Yes samsara sucks.

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  7. 12 Days of distractions… (with the family) 12 Months of practicing Dharma… (in your cave) that was the deal for this Christmas 🎅 and the New Year Celebrations and so… Happy 😊 New Year to everyone and may practicing makes perfect 👌💕 Love… j.

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